So, you are tired, feel like giving up, seems as if nothing is going your way, you stay up all day and night praying and crying, crying, and praying, calling out and asking God, “How long, when, or why?” Yet, maybe telling Him or yourself that you just cannot do it anymore. Right now you have reached a critical point in your life where you just want to give up and throw in the towel, but I tell you, before you throw in the towel, remember what God tells us in Isaiah 41:10 (KJV), “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
I must testify, a month ago, my financial situation changed quickly and drastically once I got married. See, I come from a family of strong, hardworking independent women, and even if a few were married, they still carried their own weight while being the dutiful wife. I am headstrong. So, when I was told that I had to let my husband lead and I saw that financially I was going to have to be dependent upon him, it did not bode well with my spirit. I became restless, had crying fits, became doubtful, and spoke negatively every day. After being able to take care of myself all these years, like paying my own bills, standing on my own two feet, just being independent and not depending on anyone but God, I just did not know how to handle losing my portion of income. I was ready to throw in the towel; to literally just give up because I could not understand how the Lord I served brought me this far only for it all to be snatched away. I stopped praying, I stopped reading my Bible, and I was no longer fasting. Joshua 1:9 (KJV) says, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”
The Turnaround
A month and four weeks later, I was home alone, and I just began to pray, to talk to God. I said (with tears in my eyes), “God, in 2002 when I could no longer work, you eventually blessed my disability to come on through in 2006. In 2016, you told me to go back to school and get my GED, in 2017, you started me on the path to pursue my bachelor’s in communication and a Certificate in Journalism and ensured I graduated in 2021. You sent me a Godly husband, the man I prayed for, and you have blessed me with a vehicle, but all this only to lose my income? What will I do now?”
In the midst and tranquility of quietness, God reminded me that His grace was sufficient. He reminded me that He was Omnipotent, Omnipresent, and Omniscient, meaning all-powerful, all-present, and all-knowing. See, God let me know that I was not supposed to get too comfortable with depending on a monthly check (a worldly thing), yes, I needed the money to live, survive, and get by, and God knows this best, but before my disability fell through, I went four years not able to work and with no income trying to raise three young children alone and it was God and God only who kept me and my children fed, clothed, sheltered, provided and cared for. He said, “My child, TRUST ME. I already foresaw and knew this day was coming. This is why I encouraged you to return to school and after graduating in getting your GED, I pushed you to go on a little further to the University, even when you were being defiant and acting stubborn, but you relented. You do not depend on a check, nor people, man, woman, or child, but me and my son Jesus Christ only, therefore, it is time to go back to work. You have degrees now. This was the whole point. This was the purpose. I have prepared you beforehand, can you not see that? (My tears started flowing a little harder and my hands went up in praise and worship). Dry your tears, lift your head, trust me for it all, and yes, trust your husband to lead, I put you two together for a reason. Remember my words: Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” God had spoken and I listened. So, we say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me? Hebrews 13:5-6 (KJV). After God spoke to my heart that day, I relinquished all my burdens to Him.
I received deliverance that day. I was once again set free, and I have not looked back. I do not know what any of you may be going through or facing, but like me, before you decide to throw in the towel or give up, remember, you are still here, and this matters. If you are dealing with depression, loneliness, trusting, fear, abuse of any kind, or are feeling lost, just trust Him and trust in Him. He says, “Be still, and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10 (KJV). Nothing is too hard for our Father in Heaven. Keep praying, keep fasting, and stay in your Word. A change is going to come indefinitely. It might not look like it right now but just hold on, help is surely on the way. Do not give up. Jesus loves you and me unconditionally. Let Satan fall into his own traps and snares. Not you and me any longer. “Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe” Proverbs 29:25 (KJV).
If anyone reading this article is looking for a church home and true deliverance, come on out and visit us, all are welcome, we would very much love to have you. The address is: 547 Seminary Street, Kenansville, North Carolina 28349. Sunday school starts at 10:15 AM and church service starts at 11 AM. Our Pastor is Dr. Bobby C. Lamb and Co-Pastor is his lovely wife, Willie Mae Lamb. Also, you can join us via conference call for Wednesday night Bible Study service at 7 PM, that phone number is 712-832-5607 and the input number is #805674 to be connected. Amen. Until next time folks, stay blessed!!
